My Memories

I dont really know why i choose this title, by the way, why i said so is because of one of the fact that i found out recently in kampar. When i have my life in Puchong, i never said that girl emotion is like changing a clothes in a second but when i was in kampar, it totally different that i will have this thoughts even i studying in Ipoh. izit kampar girl stay at such a small town, they get pressure on their mentally or physically? I dont really know and comform about this but the way they act is faster then changing a clothes. let just say about today, i called someone, tries to help and care but what i get it a SUDDEN end call, by the way, nevermind, i dont mind to call back and i get the second SUDDEN end call, WOW, it just feel like i did something wrong. But nevermind la, maybe that person does not have a good mood that is stress or frustrated about the assignment and mid term? lol. by the way, back to the point of "judgement??", why i said it not a judgement, it just because that i not really judging girls but maybe that the world is changing, im seeing more fact and reality of what happening to the world, perhaps it is, im not sure but if a girl asked me "Hey, Jr(or Jeremiah), why you acting so wired today??u keep smiling like a silly guy = =" does this make me a epic fail??nah, actually i was just keeping myself happy, i wanna make changes so i tries to Smile everytime and wish to bring back ten smiles when i reach home and have a sweet sleep =) i was changing as girls and the world are changing so i dont judge because i cant judge even if the judgement day is arrive. Human changing everyday, from good to bad, bad to good, naive to mature, mature to playful(just like naive), from thin to fat, fat to thin, study to work, work to learn, and others, so everythings change everyday, so i dont deserve to make any judgement because i could judge before my God judge. Just wishes that human change to learn from mistake because mistake is a pain and if no pain, no gain =) God Bless everyone in they life of learning to rich to top of the world.

Now Is 7:38PM
This is the time i start to write this post
Today i have a very bad day. My friends dont wanna talk with me, my other friend that take bus together with me always lie become stranger to me, dont even talk much in the bus. Even arriving kampar, she like very rush, go buy a book and said that she want to go back, so on it been a week we didnt get out together, back to the cafe we always been. and less sms, even call also less. Tomorrow is my assignment submission dateline and the assignment that i did is totally wrong, i have to redo and complete it by tonight. I felt that im so weak now, stressing, frustrated and so disappoint to my own self. How can i redo the whole assignment in one night if im so tiring now? i still having take my dinner when i writing thing post, i got no mood to do my assignment yet i still hearing sad love song, my mood is totally down to the MAX. What i wish now is the my God wil talk to me, give me Power, Strength, Wisdom and whatever i need.
Now is 7:44PM
i dnt know what to write, my day is just so unlucky, i felt like my heart being stab with a lot of sharp knife, i just feel that my tears in crying inside my heart. I lost direction, i dont know what o do, i dont know how to think, i dont know anythings. I just know that i'm not the best for now. I was hungry, my throat are not good, my gastric is stricking me nearly this time, i ate fried CNY food now, i feel like wanted to die then staying in this world.
Now is 7:48PM
My Brain is full of nonsense, think too much and is totally blank of what i should do now, later, tomorrow and the other day after tomorrow. I was like wanted to commit suicide so that i dont need to think anymore and stress anymore.
Now is 7:52PM
I just wanted to end my blog here and post it right nowbut i dont think there will be people that seeing it. It been so long that i have not post any blog.
7:53P posted this blog

i know many people are saying my bad thing from secondary til college life...but you all never know the fact of what you all been saying to me!!! i told you all once and again, i not doing any sins or bad to any of you, i treat you all the same way as i treat other, so if you all wanna say bad thing about me, up to you...and for the guys part, i know you all saying a lot of bad things about me because of you jealous so please dont blame me for God will not punish me...thx..

and one more thing, is the way you treat me that got problem, not the way i treat you all...i treat everyone fair and square...all of you always look down on me, look down on thing i cant do because non of you willing to help me as for im help each and everyone of you...being good for bad punishment???

i was alone and always will be alone and so i find friend, i try to keep my self get connected with you all but you all will only think that im a paper that had been write wrong(a friend that you had wrongly knowed) and after that, just throw me to rubbish bin and when you recycle(when you need me) you will get me and after that you will still throw me away...

so from now on, those that dislike me can direct delete me from any of my facebook account because i dont think is worth for you to add me and seeing my post about all my bull shit stuff, you all can get out from my life from now on because non of you believe and understand me so i will not waste my time to explain much and believe you all anymore because i will be glad that im doing so for that clean of my own name and image...

i think 2012(so call end of the world) is coming....
26 school at ipoh having flu virus spreading around, japan having earthquake...
so when i gonna die???
i really dont know when i going to die
and i almost been crush by 4 car reverse today so i got a feel that today goin to happen something bad but how would i know it happen something more worst...
thought something good gonna happen when i get her message today
but who knows that it become a disaster...
sorry so much Mia Jia Xin...
hope that we could still stay as fren and stay contact....
just let the memory fade away and start from the beginning again....
im going to lost from ur memory and sight soon..
as a fairy tails that an angel of protection will be going to lost by your side....
fairy tails story always end with disaster and tragic....
so now i pray for the world that all my concern/caring will be fall on the land that created with God hands so that everyone have a person to care for them forever...
Thanks God giving me a temptation and a memory...
Take care my friends...
Thanks to my Drug(my coffee) that bring my life near to end all the time
and i will continue for your killing in my heart....
GrAce LeOng, i admit i miss you so much but wish that you will found a better one^^
im not joking for all my words because im over concern for you all....
so i will stay the far distance with you all from now on from getting any misunderstand...
so i will being alone and staying in my dark sight again....
enough for stupid social networking things and liar around me....
i wanna end everything bad right now...
so please start everything in a proper way....

这篇日志是从一个美国人的Facebook转来的。
Source from a guy posted in Facebook, in case he reads this =)


I don't care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.... I dont care if you are a guy or a woman or Michael Jackson..... just read this, it will make a difference.
if only everyone could see this and understand it....

When she stares at your mouth
[ Kiss her ]


When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb ass cuz she thinks shes stronger than you
[ Grab her and dont let go ]


When she starts cursing at you tryin to act all tuff
[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]


When she's quiet
[ Ask her whats wrong ]


When she ignores you
[ Give her your attention ]


When she pulls away
[ Pull her back ]


When you see her at her worst
[ Tell her she's beautiful ]


When you see her start cryin
[Just hold her and dont say a word]


When you see her walkin
[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]


When she's scared
[ Protect her ]


When she steals your favorite sweatshirt
[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night ]


When she teases you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesn't answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is okay ]


When she looks at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]


When she says that she likes you
[she really does more than you can understand]

When she grabs at your hands
[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]

When she bumps into you;
[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]


When she tells you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]


When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]


When she says it's over.

[ she still wants you to be hers ]


When she reposts this bulletin
[ she wants you to read it ]


- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

-Treat her like she's all that matters to you


- Stay up all night with her when shes sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid


- Give her the world


- Let her wear your clothes


-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her


- Let her know she's important!

- DON'T TALK ABOUT OTHER GIRLS AROUND HER!

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up to you crying, ask her

"Whose ass am I kicking baby?"



评语: Too sweet for me ≥ω≤ ❤♥



09022011

Tonite my house had happen a big fight or should be call a argument that the victam is my second uncle. It's spund like a joke for you instead of a argument but after you read all this, you will hate SAKAI in the world. I should begin the story with my second sunt that cause all the problem in my shop and because of that, we call her as a SAKAI. she bring my third aunt to become a sakai as well cause they are sister. so tonite this SAKAI maybe in a M time but who cares because she drop the guy or we should callmy uncle as MAN cos he had get mad today and i mean it, TOTALLY MAD!!! she did not get to wont the 1000plus loteri and so she blame her husband that is my uncle and scold him like HELL!!! and think he is a JERK!!! so my uncle totally MAD tonite and went back to my grandma house. When he stepped into the house, he started to scold and scold that SAKAI non-stop like a MAN!!! and another fast, she go genting gamble and lose money until borrow from ALONG, my uncle also didnt say anything but this time, she is totally over to scold my uncle as a JERK and because of that, my uncle is BEH TA HAN already. So tonite a World War had happen in my house and tomorrow i had to get my self a heavy and strong armor to protect my self from being kill. so Conclusion is, you think the whole story, who's wrong and who's the greatest?

(chinese)

原来我们都没变`



同样的故事..　同样的问题..　同样的过程..　同样的结局..


你..依然是我所深爱的人..

(pinyin)


Yuánlái wǒmen dōu méi biàn `


tóngyàng de gùshì.. Tóngyàng de wèntí.. Tóngyàng de guòchéng.. Tóngyàng de jiéjú..


Nǐ.. Yīrán shì wǒ suǒ shēn ài de rén..

(english translate)


`We have not change frem the start


Same story .. same problem .. same process as the outcome .. ..


.. you still the person I love ..

(my sentence)


ok....to a person have love problem,its sound like this

(problem in translating)


things never change from the beginning....


same story,argue always...same problem,get suffer alone always....same path that u'll only be blame...same ending, will not break...


but still confusing that yourself still love him after so many hurt you get....

End of YEAR 2010


Hmm, how should I start blog???

Wondering what I should write down…

How about I start my story with the starting I went here…

When I was just arrive here at Kampar with my new life, I really have no direction, no education, no work to earn money, just helping my family work and waiting for my SPM result to out. After all, I have thought that I will fail my account and math (because I hate it) until the day I receive my SPM slip, I found out that my result is totally sucks until I can’t in KTAR. But after go KTAR ask for the qualification, they have ask me to go to the education fair at SYUEN HOTEL, IPOH because of my result.

After I have went to the education fair, I have register at a college at Ipoh that is Olympia College. They have ask me to go for the IEP class that provided for free and at there I have know all the friends there and they are totally very friendly and after that class finish, I have my 2-3 weeks holiday. That time I was waiting for my 1st semester to start. At the same time, I have study at a RE2 INTORNATIONAL SCHOOL for extra computer class and I learned a lot of software at there. I start my 1st semester at Olympia College at May. That time I really don’t know much people at there.

Ok, this is going to be a long story if I continue write like this so I have to summarize it for whole semester.

Hmm, in the 1st semester, I’m really happy to know so many friends like Adrian, Hau Jack, Carven, Eng Chun, and other that I know at my IEP class before this. I have also been invited to join that OCC that is Olympia Cyber Club.

Ok, have to jump to the 2nd semester because of holiday after my 1st semester.

Hmm, at my 2nd semester I have know those new semester students and I’m so happy to join them. But in this semester, I have also be the secretary in the OCC (what a joke, 2nd semester already sit at those kind of place)

**Ya, almost forget one thing in my that happen in this semester

This semester I not just only know some new great and funny friends, I have gone to clubbing as well at my Orientation Night and our performance of SHUFFLE at Orientation Night is great job, Carven, you did well. Hmm, I also have a not so call secret, I have meet a girl name Carmen or Grace at RE2 and I have a sweet relationship, sweet time and I Love Her so much but too sad, this relationship only last for 20 days but I’m so happy to have a sweet, nice and good girlfriend.

Ok, look like my story about the time I went here have end and I think I have end my story about my education as well. Now how about I start my story about my family and life.

Ok, now I really don’t know how to start my story. My family??? They like to quarrel very much and my aunt all those are very noisy and disturbing my life when I having my semester break even I have a day to rest in my study time, they will ask me out to help at shop (boring ==lll) and my life is great because I have know a branch of friends at KGH Church. How about a branch of youths is more nice to hear. I also have keep contact with some of my old church NLRC, PJ friends as well.

Ok, its very simple about my life and family and how about Christian and instrument life now.

Yaya, I like this part^^ hmm, I have meet a Christian from other place and stay contact with her. I have a ex-girlfriend (that I mention in my relationship that girl, Carmen), she is a Catholic. I have join the KGH youth fellowship all the time (ya, I didn’t pray, join they Sunday service and also speak in tongue) but I have start to serve at there after I have spend my half year wasting my time didn’t serve. But im happy that I not just can serve, I can improve my skill as well because I was playing skill with my guitar partner (ya, she is a great guitarist as well) but I still not yet get use to they song yet I have was spending a little of my time playing skill at home (less play normal playing already or a full song with chords)

Hmm, about my December holiday?? (Just finish my exam at 6 December)

My December that is the month my brother have back here. Having a great time together with my family and totally with his snore sound at night. (WALAU!!) but I just know that my time is running so fast and is the last few day of 2010.

Hope that 2011 will be a more greater year for me <3

Jesus ♥ Jeremiah
Jeremiah ♥ Jesus

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today i read a daily devotional by joyce mayer and now i really awake from my nightmare dream...God, ur son , me, i'm back now...Joshua and Matthew have waken me up now...this is her daily devotion

But I say, walk and live [habitually] in the [Holy] Spirit [responsive to and controlled and guided by the Spirit]; then you will certainly not gratify the cravings and desires of the flesh (of human nature without God).
— Galatians 5:16

“The fruit of the [Holy] Spirit, [the work which His presence within accomplishes] is love, joy (gladness), peace, patience (an even temper, forbearance), kindness, goodness (benevolence), faithfulness, gentleness (meekness, humility), self-control (self-restraint, continence)” (Galatians 5:22–23).

People throughout the world try to acquire these virtues through counseling or self-help books. Yet the Bible says that if we walk with God, the Spiritfilled life will produce all these things within us. Give your life to God each day, and He will create a right heart in you, one that will want to do the things He would have you do.