My Memories

I dont really know why i choose this title, by the way, why i said so is because of one of the fact that i found out recently in kampar. When i have my life in Puchong, i never said that girl emotion is like changing a clothes in a second but when i was in kampar, it totally different that i will have this thoughts even i studying in Ipoh. izit kampar girl stay at such a small town, they get pressure on their mentally or physically? I dont really know and comform about this but the way they act is faster then changing a clothes. let just say about today, i called someone, tries to help and care but what i get it a SUDDEN end call, by the way, nevermind, i dont mind to call back and i get the second SUDDEN end call, WOW, it just feel like i did something wrong. But nevermind la, maybe that person does not have a good mood that is stress or frustrated about the assignment and mid term? lol. by the way, back to the point of "judgement??", why i said it not a judgement, it just because that i not really judging girls but maybe that the world is changing, im seeing more fact and reality of what happening to the world, perhaps it is, im not sure but if a girl asked me "Hey, Jr(or Jeremiah), why you acting so wired today??u keep smiling like a silly guy = =" does this make me a epic fail??nah, actually i was just keeping myself happy, i wanna make changes so i tries to Smile everytime and wish to bring back ten smiles when i reach home and have a sweet sleep =) i was changing as girls and the world are changing so i dont judge because i cant judge even if the judgement day is arrive. Human changing everyday, from good to bad, bad to good, naive to mature, mature to playful(just like naive), from thin to fat, fat to thin, study to work, work to learn, and others, so everythings change everyday, so i dont deserve to make any judgement because i could judge before my God judge. Just wishes that human change to learn from mistake because mistake is a pain and if no pain, no gain =) God Bless everyone in they life of learning to rich to top of the world.

Now Is 7:38PM
This is the time i start to write this post
Today i have a very bad day. My friends dont wanna talk with me, my other friend that take bus together with me always lie become stranger to me, dont even talk much in the bus. Even arriving kampar, she like very rush, go buy a book and said that she want to go back, so on it been a week we didnt get out together, back to the cafe we always been. and less sms, even call also less. Tomorrow is my assignment submission dateline and the assignment that i did is totally wrong, i have to redo and complete it by tonight. I felt that im so weak now, stressing, frustrated and so disappoint to my own self. How can i redo the whole assignment in one night if im so tiring now? i still having take my dinner when i writing thing post, i got no mood to do my assignment yet i still hearing sad love song, my mood is totally down to the MAX. What i wish now is the my God wil talk to me, give me Power, Strength, Wisdom and whatever i need.
Now is 7:44PM
i dnt know what to write, my day is just so unlucky, i felt like my heart being stab with a lot of sharp knife, i just feel that my tears in crying inside my heart. I lost direction, i dont know what o do, i dont know how to think, i dont know anythings. I just know that i'm not the best for now. I was hungry, my throat are not good, my gastric is stricking me nearly this time, i ate fried CNY food now, i feel like wanted to die then staying in this world.
Now is 7:48PM
My Brain is full of nonsense, think too much and is totally blank of what i should do now, later, tomorrow and the other day after tomorrow. I was like wanted to commit suicide so that i dont need to think anymore and stress anymore.
Now is 7:52PM
I just wanted to end my blog here and post it right nowbut i dont think there will be people that seeing it. It been so long that i have not post any blog.
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