My Memories

End of YEAR 2010


Hmm, how should I start blog???

Wondering what I should write down…

How about I start my story with the starting I went here…

When I was just arrive here at Kampar with my new life, I really have no direction, no education, no work to earn money, just helping my family work and waiting for my SPM result to out. After all, I have thought that I will fail my account and math (because I hate it) until the day I receive my SPM slip, I found out that my result is totally sucks until I can’t in KTAR. But after go KTAR ask for the qualification, they have ask me to go to the education fair at SYUEN HOTEL, IPOH because of my result.

After I have went to the education fair, I have register at a college at Ipoh that is Olympia College. They have ask me to go for the IEP class that provided for free and at there I have know all the friends there and they are totally very friendly and after that class finish, I have my 2-3 weeks holiday. That time I was waiting for my 1st semester to start. At the same time, I have study at a RE2 INTORNATIONAL SCHOOL for extra computer class and I learned a lot of software at there. I start my 1st semester at Olympia College at May. That time I really don’t know much people at there.

Ok, this is going to be a long story if I continue write like this so I have to summarize it for whole semester.

Hmm, in the 1st semester, I’m really happy to know so many friends like Adrian, Hau Jack, Carven, Eng Chun, and other that I know at my IEP class before this. I have also been invited to join that OCC that is Olympia Cyber Club.

Ok, have to jump to the 2nd semester because of holiday after my 1st semester.

Hmm, at my 2nd semester I have know those new semester students and I’m so happy to join them. But in this semester, I have also be the secretary in the OCC (what a joke, 2nd semester already sit at those kind of place)

**Ya, almost forget one thing in my that happen in this semester

This semester I not just only know some new great and funny friends, I have gone to clubbing as well at my Orientation Night and our performance of SHUFFLE at Orientation Night is great job, Carven, you did well. Hmm, I also have a not so call secret, I have meet a girl name Carmen or Grace at RE2 and I have a sweet relationship, sweet time and I Love Her so much but too sad, this relationship only last for 20 days but I’m so happy to have a sweet, nice and good girlfriend.

Ok, look like my story about the time I went here have end and I think I have end my story about my education as well. Now how about I start my story about my family and life.

Ok, now I really don’t know how to start my story. My family??? They like to quarrel very much and my aunt all those are very noisy and disturbing my life when I having my semester break even I have a day to rest in my study time, they will ask me out to help at shop (boring ==lll) and my life is great because I have know a branch of friends at KGH Church. How about a branch of youths is more nice to hear. I also have keep contact with some of my old church NLRC, PJ friends as well.

Ok, its very simple about my life and family and how about Christian and instrument life now.

Yaya, I like this part^^ hmm, I have meet a Christian from other place and stay contact with her. I have a ex-girlfriend (that I mention in my relationship that girl, Carmen), she is a Catholic. I have join the KGH youth fellowship all the time (ya, I didn’t pray, join they Sunday service and also speak in tongue) but I have start to serve at there after I have spend my half year wasting my time didn’t serve. But im happy that I not just can serve, I can improve my skill as well because I was playing skill with my guitar partner (ya, she is a great guitarist as well) but I still not yet get use to they song yet I have was spending a little of my time playing skill at home (less play normal playing already or a full song with chords)

Hmm, about my December holiday?? (Just finish my exam at 6 December)

My December that is the month my brother have back here. Having a great time together with my family and totally with his snore sound at night. (WALAU!!) but I just know that my time is running so fast and is the last few day of 2010.

Hope that 2011 will be a more greater year for me <3

Jesus ♥ Jeremiah
Jeremiah ♥ Jesus

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today i read a daily devotional by joyce mayer and now i really awake from my nightmare dream...God, ur son , me, i'm back now...Joshua and Matthew have waken me up now...this is her daily devotion

But I say, walk and live [habitually] in the [Holy] Spirit [responsive to and controlled and guided by the Spirit]; then you will certainly not gratify the cravings and desires of the flesh (of human nature without God).
— Galatians 5:16

“The fruit of the [Holy] Spirit, [the work which His presence within accomplishes] is love, joy (gladness), peace, patience (an even temper, forbearance), kindness, goodness (benevolence), faithfulness, gentleness (meekness, humility), self-control (self-restraint, continence)” (Galatians 5:22–23).

People throughout the world try to acquire these virtues through counseling or self-help books. Yet the Bible says that if we walk with God, the Spiritfilled life will produce all these things within us. Give your life to God each day, and He will create a right heart in you, one that will want to do the things He would have you do.

Part Time Job

really duno why i feel so
whenever i getting lonely, i really with my other part were beside me all the time
but im still single til now
i duno whether they care about how i look like
or because of my birth mark beside my right eye
or i look ugly
or bored
or maybe even stupid enough to love someone
that i, my ownself also feel like duno what love is
so i really wish to find bac the feel
and totally found someone that i really love
and really love me as well
but i duno whether i should choose you or not
so i hope i dun need to choose you
but you the one that choose me
can you do it?
but if you really love me
i think u will do it
because if u cant do it that mean you wont love me
or your love to me are not enough
just three words that i wish to hear from you
if u really love
just that simple three words "I LOVE YOU"
and that all could prove that you really love me
and i wont go to get you anymore
because you have told me that you love me
and i will love you forever more in my life  

♥ Jeremiah ♥ ♥Love♥ ♥ You ♥

♥ this is between ME and YOU ♥

when the 1st time i meet u, I in LOVE with YOU

when the last time u hurt me, u din break my HEART

but u took away my HEART because 

I LOVE YOU more then i could DIE for you

because DIE could not LOVE you more then I could be

because DIE END EVERYTHING
that's why every words that I wanna say is just for YOU
and every words is TRULY came out from my HEART
no matter when, where or what time

because i just wanna say I LOVE YOU forever

because i know that every moment that I spend with YOU will be full of LOVE

and every step that I walk with YOU will be full with SMILE =)
i just want to be by your side FOREVER AND EVER
not even giving a chances to LET YOUR HAND GO
because MY LOVE LASTS, DEATH END
that is why I LOVE YOU more then i could DIE for YOU
~I LOVE YOU~

Girl: Thank for the fun day
Guy: No problem
Girl: Can i ask you a few questions?
Guy: Sure O.O
Girl: And....
Girl: Be Honest
Girl: Have i ever crossed your mind?
Guy: No
Girl: Do you like me?
Guy: No
Girl: Do you want me?
Guy: No
Girl: Would you cry if i left?
Guy: No
Girl: Would you live for me?
Guy: No
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Guy: No
Girl: Choose me or your life
Guy: My life
The girl ran away in shock depression
The boy ran after her and told her....
The reason you never crossed my mind because
YOU'RE ALWAYS IN MY MIND
The reason why i don't like you is because
I LOVE YOU
The reason i don't want you is
I NEED YOU
The reason why i wouldn't cry if you left
BECAUSE I WILL DIE IF YOU LEFT
the reason i wouldn't live for you is because
I WILL DIE FOR YOU
The reason i'm not willing to do anything for you is because
I WILL DO EVERYTHING FOR YOU
The reason i choose my life is because
YOU ARE MY LIFE

I LOVE YOU
THE END

全都变了
在一晚里面
全部东西都变了
我和他的relationship也变了
她才不会理我了
也不会sms我了
不会reply我的sms了
更加不会在理我有没有on9了
他的笑容也不在了
我只能很远的地方看着他
也不能够再和他一起笑了
为什么会变成这样的？？
我已经不再对你有感情了
但是为什么你要这样对我
我已经是很累了
如果我和你好像以前那样
对不起
如果你想找回我
我什么时候都是always online

this is my 1st time write chinese words for so long...as for ur information, im a banana...is got a little help from my fren for some correction...thanks for reading^^

sometimes feeling is very sucks....
and the defination for feeling is disturbing our life...
and i wish im feelingless....
feeling is really bothering my life now....
i duno what should i do to release those emo feeling...
and totally i duno how to release cold-blooded feeling at my fren...
and it just making everything totally nonsense.....
feeling feel like everything to the world...
happy, joyful, sad, painful and other feeling...
with or without those feeling is just like no different...
anger, emo, frustrated and other as well...
is just like making the world moving more slow then the time...
why does feeling making me so ....
i really duno why...haiz....
feelingless = SPEECHLESS NOW...

status...sad
she is online, but she is been offline to me
she got credit,but she dun even reply or even see my msg
even i got thing to tell her,but she din even wanna hear it
although i miss her,she might be missing someone else
she is offline and i just think that she had been sleeping right now
and when she reply, she just said, "im busy!!"
and wat i say is, "then please reply me when u r not"
im so sad :'( please reply me soon....

i remember the 1st day we meet *im so shy that time*

i remember the time we take bus together *i sited with other person and you sited with other person as well*

even i remember the 1st time i hold your hand *my heart beat jumping so fast & im so nervous*

i even remember that we wear what color shirt that day *i wear red, you wear blue and inside is black*

i also remember the time & feel i hugged you *it just making me feel so warm & sweet*

i do even remember that time i hug around ur waist *it making me wanna kiss you*

the time we went back home together *i just wish to hold your hand & rest for a moment*

even the time we go out together *i just wish to see your smile & have a nice day*

the time we have our lunch together *it just making me feel full with looking at you*

the time we walk together *i just know we were meant to be together*

even the time we sit together *i just know that i will focus on you*

but eventually, all is just a dream *sooner or later we gonna wake up as well*

and when we woke up from this dream *it's feel like a nightmare*

all will be end *even the smile that we had before*

and all will turn to abnormal *even when we meet, it just feel like something happen before*

without explanation *what is happening around*

and it feel like something lost between us *wish to hold ur hand in the reality again*

the touch between us *the feeling of your warm*

even the feeling disappear suddenly *the feel of ur soft hand,the feel of hugging you,the feel of ur pretty eyes even the warm and happy feeling when be with you is all disappear so suddenly*

and everything happen within a second *not even a second*

and what i wish is just to be with you again *together and forever*

I LOVE YOU

it was just following my feel to write down....if you have problem to understand it, please use the translater to translate it...thanks....copyright reserved by Jeremiah Jr Chai....

i wish i could go club...
but i dun wish too...
because everytime i heard my frens that i cares so much goin to those kind of place,
i really very worry 
and have bad feel that sumthing will happen to her 
and mostly i cares is girls
and my frens around me that i will remembered and cares oways...
please to go again...
i need you now...
because once i heard it...
my heart break
and it feel like a knife have stabbed my heart
and my tears falling down straight away
i wish i could out with them and protect them now...
even i have to sacrifice to do so
i'm willing to do so
because i will remember you all oways...
FRENS, i cares and love you all...
promise me not to go lau :'(

It was a calm night. Not a soul was in the street. It seemed peaceful. Yet...with one person, there was no peace within him.

A lone figure sat at a desk, writing a letter, while his girlfriend slept peacefully three feet away.

My Sweet Heart,

As I look back on our time we been together, I smile. But when I try to imagine our future, I realize that I can't give you the life you need-

-One more kiss could be the best thing

But one more lie could be the worst

And all these thoughts are never resting

And you're not something I deserve-

It breaks my heart to tell you this, but-

-In my head there's only you now

This world falls on me

In this world there's real and make believe

And this seems real to me-

I'm not who you think I am-

-You love me but you don't know who I am

I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand

And you love me but you don't know who I am

So let me go

Let me go-

-I dream ahead to what I hope for

And I turn my back on loving you

How can this love be a good thing?

When I know what I'm going through-

You see...I'm a Death Eater. I have been since before we were together-

-In my head there's only you

This world falls on me

In this world there's real and make believe

And this seems real to me-

I'm sure you are pissed off at me, and you have every right to be. It's time I tell you why I made the choice I did-

-You love me but you don't know who I am

I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand

You love me but you don't know who I am

So let me go

Just let me go...

Let me go-

-And no matter how hard I try

I can't escape these things inside I know

I know...

When all the pieces fall apart

You will be the only one who knows

Who knows...-

~*~

The figure paused and looked at a picture. It was of him and his girlfriend. He smiled sadly, as he remembered that day.

~*~

I don't want you to cry, not a single tear. It will only make things worse. I love you, and I always will, but this is how it needs to be; Me and you living a happy life, not in fear, with someone else-

-You love me but you don't know who I am

I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand

And you love me but you don't know who I am

So let me go

Just let me go-

I will love you until the end of time.

My love,

D-

-And you love me but you don't

You love me but you don't

You love me but you don't know who I am

And you love me but you don't

You love me but you don't

You love me but you don't know me-

I was not meant to be with you...:'(

what i giving u is oni trouble...:'(

and it will be a bigger after each day and each day....:'(

and thing is getting worst every second the time passed...:'(

i know it from earlier but i still wanna do it...:'(

but i hope it will end soon...:'(

for the time has arrive, everything had to be reveal....:'(

as for i love you from the start but i have to stop it at the end coz what i get at last its just a broken heart...:'(

a smaller piece everytime i been hurt...:'(

til it cant saw how my heart actually look like....:'(

sry...:'(

i cant treat you as nice as you wish... :'(

coz im not perfect enough for you...:'(

for what you wish is better then me...:'(

and i could not be better then what im now...:'(

for this is what im, who im...:'(

my heart was mean to be break once but not meant to be break twice by you...:'(

because it will be a pain process to both of us...:'(

so i wish there is no start and end....=)

so that it wont break any1 of our heart....=)

thanks for being with me when the time im lonely....=)

i appreciate all our memories together....=)

although its maybe just a day but i appreciate every moment that you spend with me...=)

I LOVE YOU =)

thanks^^...

my heart break...

my tear drop...

i m so hurt...

and it just no way to turn back...

this is what love meant to be...

harmful and liarful...

we sacrifice to make her happY...

but what we get at last its only sadness and tear... :'(

as a guy, i just can hold on my tears from falling down no matter how sad m i,

i stil need to hold on the tears until the end of my life....

i wish to let my tears flow out through my blood now....

and wish to die in this nightmare tonight...

my ♥ is so pain and so hurt and it crying in it now... :'(